But i know that this was my choice and i know that if i want you back their is no more chances but i know if you were in danger i would come. Idk but i only did this because it was my choice. I am just not ready. I said all those things becuase i am not ready and i am not.
I haven’t been on msn for long time since that day i gave you that message. I guess it was just too tough to handle that maybe i would regret it and you will disappear and moved on. I don’t know , I am just having mixed feelings and at times i try to tempt myself by not going on your tumblr/checking out your status on msn. Signed — I was hoping this year we would start fresh and clean and i wouldn’t have to worry about anything like cautions.I did shit things last year and you still came back and talked to me. That’s really different for me and thats what i like , something new and not typical. I shared you a song so that maybe it would relieve you for all those things that are going with you and other people. Its hard.I just want myself to be happy and not always alarmed by you. Like I want to be with you but i worry that shit will happen and i won’t like your personality anymore… ” If you love somebody let them go, If they come back it was meant to be ” .you’ve been through and you keep trying to be strong , trying to play bad. Your not going to go anywhere. I don’t want you to do revenge like i did before , it stupid. You don’t have to change who you are to show your a better person, I like the way you were before when i first met you. You were a better person without all those revenge shit and the careless attitude for your love ones, You were a better person back then. I am not saying ” it’s someone fault this had happen ” i am saying that at times last year i could already see ” true colors ” and that is me looking at every offline message you gave me. I never replied because we were not meant to be. I try to make it be but it just came out wrong.
P.s You don’t have to be strong and that saying that goes around don’t let people step on you. Don’t let it brother you or your feelings it’s not telling yu to do some shit back it’s telling you to get over it and that is what is called being strong.. not fighting back because revenge doesn’t solve any shit. It’s sin. like all those offlines message , you gave me in the past how much you hate me those were all revenge.
THIS IS A DAMN FRIDGE. no joke. The green stuff is gel and you just shove your food in, and it keeps it cold.
i’m mindfucked right now.
I don’t think this will be advertised ‘til the 2020’s.
(Source: freyjageist)
